S: “Are you lonely?”

            Man: “Yes.”

S: “Do you mean harm?”

            Man: “Yes.”

S: “Should I leave?”

            Man: “Yes.”

 

I turn around and away from the man and see a rainbow which is the milky way. I go to it and meet a white unicorn that starts licking my skin and cleaning it from layers of dirt. A green snake comes out from my belly button, and I ask: “What now?”. As a response I get: “Listen.” So, I do and turn into rain that falls down to Earth and I feel what the grass and the ants feel on their skin, to be touched by me, as rain. Now, I meet another man, a different one, he tells me his name is Michael and we exchange greetings. I ask if I can hug him and that hug turns into a dance, a couple one. A white marble ball drops out from my heart and as it touches the earth it multiplies into millions, covering the ground. Those balls then enter through the feet of people, travelling up their bodies to come out again through their mouths. This makes the people to walk with a bit of a hunch back, and the white marble balls form visible circles, loops that just go around and around. I find the image quite beautiful. I look up to the skies and see that the stars are falling, almost like rain.

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This is when I see my mother, she is tiny, curled up and hurt. I bury her deep into the earths warmth so that she is protected. I am back at the hill with the man and discover that he is my father, and he is lost. So, I take his hand and take him to a garden. He doesn’t want me to leave but I must, so I give him a book which we burn. He then steps into the fire to burn himself and the flames turn purple and reach me. As I am burning, I find myself swimming in the ocean with my two sisters. Each of us find a different shore. At the shore I reach, Michael is waiting for me, and he makes that clear. I ask, “What now?”, and he answers, “hear.”

Susanna Ylikoski